let me tell you something..

"Oh and I, I just want to make you understand that failing on me isn't in my plans
And all of the doubts that fill my mind, don't belong there."
- Caleigh Peters: Reach

let me tell you something..

I guess I have to push myself harder than this.
play harder.
work smarter.

let me tell you something..

"Life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard"
- Dashboard Confessional: Belle of The Boulevard

sleepless. breathles..

another sleepless night. as always. this bad habit has become such a routine thing for me, since I was a high school student. and my friends called me "the nocturnal girl". not a good thing to be proud of, though.. :p

after had a midnight bottle (like Colbie Caillat's song). and a midnight call from my friend ;) ,,
I couldn't sleep more. so here I am, taking my time to do some somewhat writing while listening to Monkey Majik's songs. I always love their songs.

these days,
people seems like wanting some more from me. more of this and that. here and there. tiring.

some people try to be good, but some don't.
don't hate me just because I can do more than you.
don't hate me just because I can do many things and you can't.
don't hate me just because I have better deals and you don't.
don't hate me just because I am me.
some love me, others don't.
but whatever.
I don't care if they hate me. because I don't like them either.
and I have more important business to do.

anyway,,
let's move into another bubbling-thing of mine. let's talk about love. oh yea. those famous 4-letter words.

three years ago,
usually,
I was in the middle of night -like this-, and wondering what "he" was doing over there. (I don't know why I put apostrophe over there)

I usually do silly things when I'm in love, and curse myself for doing those things. such as: bugging by texting, being such a terrorist, say silly things, silly expressions, silly laugh, and many more.

dohh.

I'm being so silly.

but I guess,,
it's time for my cold-heart to play its role.
bye bye, love-boy. better I say "no" before it makes me broken heart. or making me more silly than this.

whatever the way I choose, love still hurts. :)

game over

it was three nights that I dreamt about death. MY death.

first, I was died by having a shot on my back. second, by earthquake (or some kind of 2012-like). third, by falling from the stairs. 3 lifes were lost, and I still have 6 other lifes, if I were a cat. :p
and after those nightmares, I woke up. and laughed. that's weird, no? have you ever seen a girl, having a 3 times died-nightmares and laughing after it? or should I say, I was R.I.P in my dreams. No, it's not Rest In Peace. it's Rest In Popularity. :p

I was frightened if I really lost all my time to live in. You know, nothing in this world is worst than losing a life. it means, all should be stopped. I mean, ALL! it's when you lose your time to do good things. it's time when all the bad things you've done will be reconsidered and drag you to hell (maybe).

there are so many ways to the death. some people are afraid to go by plane or ship, just because they are afraid if the ship or plane would explode or sink or fall, and they are all died. that's silly reason.
and some other people are afraid to go outside just because there are many dangerous things outside which could make them die.
and there are some others who are afraid to eat candies. just because thay are afraid to get choked and die. :p

there was an old man who died while he was only sitting in his couch.
and there was a young woman who died because of car accident.

it is a very simple method to die. whatever the way is.

so,
let's change the topic. from death to life.

life itself for me,
is just like a long road with a sign of "no escape" and "no turning back".

that's why I'm always trying my best to seize every moment I live in.
and make every second counted.

live your best life :)

let me tell you something..

Aku cuma mencoba buat bertahan terus. Capek banget, tapi aku yakin kalau impianku akan jadi kenyataan. Seenggaknya aku bakal dapet kesempatan. Prinsipku: SELALU SIAP MENERIMA TANTANGAN. Cuma aku yang bisa menentukan masa depanku. :)

be a winner!

aku pikir, sekarang ini lagi musimnya ujian untuk banyak orang.

anak SD, sibuk persiapan ujian nasional (eh, masih ada ujian nasional gak sih? :p).
anak SMP juga.
anak SMA apalagi. mereka juga sibuk buat ujian masuk universitas.
anak S1 sibuk mau UAS.
anak S2 sibuk juga.
S3..?
S4..?
S5...?

*lama-lama jadi kayak sequence.

anyway,,
best luck for anything you stumble on. and I think, anybody wants to be a millionaire. ooops,, to be a winner. :p

so here is a little note for you guys, I hope it could give a little clue for you, to be a winner.
1. gigih
2. motivasi
3. semangat
4. disiplin
5. optimis
6. bisa diandalkan (in a good term)
7. komitmen
8. berdoa kepada Allah.

8 hal sederhana. yang cukup susah untuk selalu diwujudkan. susah tapi bisa!!!
*burning

can you feel the heat over there? coz I'm now on fire.
ready to do something great? :)