gr8 months

it's been 8 months I've spent all my days in china.

I never thought I'll be having this much of progress of myself - and differences.

many things I've learned, outside and inside of the class.

many persons I've met, and each of them teaches me different lessons.

many things I've passed, happy and sad, and also something in between.

I found my family here; the crazy-yet-sweet family of international students. the experience of live together under one roof with people from different country gives me real new things. the happiness, the jokes, the laughs, the life-problems, the fights.. I love them.

and another part of my family here is my amazingly talented skating friends.

the time I practice my motions, the laughs, the falls and pain, the music, the energy.. it's all irreplaceable.

I'm glad that I have a chance to meet all of them, including all the teachers and SIAS' chairman and leaders, to learn many things from them; learn how to study well, the beautiful motions of skating, the persistence and consistence, how to love and let go, and anything..

life is a journey.

indeed we supposed to be better and even better on each of our steps.

and if we fall into a failure, how deep it is, we know we can always find our own strength to get stronger than ever.

seems like it's just yesterday the first time I breath the air of china.

but when I look back, I realize that I only have less than 2 months to stay in this magical new land.

can't wait to go back to Indonesia,

to start over my new old life.

because your love is my drug

kemarin, aku kena flu dan radang tenggorokan.,

dan temen-temen skating ku ada performance.

aku memutuskan buat keluar sebentar cari udara segar sekalian ketemu teman-teman tercinta ku.

si imut Fan Ge, aku, dan si kakak Ji Xue

Shao Ming lagi tidur siang di bawah pohon. berasa kuli ya..

pasangan di skating club: Qin Yuan Yuan dan Fan Ge

Fu Xiao Tao yang dijahili Qin Yuan Yuan

aku dan cintaku; skating dan tim skating-ku.

summer me

summer has end.

now it's time to put some more layers on everybody,

because fall is here! :))

and here's some pictures.

I'll upload more! :)

"The force is with you, young Skywalker, but you are not a Jedi yet."

it's been several nights I have my awful insomniac nights. you know the feeling when you lay on the bed but can't sleep, just curling and flipping your body, good things come in mind which make you unable to sleep because of the excess of happiness and bad things come in mind which make you unable to sleep too because it's depressing. I feel like an ill owl.

there has been many stories written about girls; completely packed with the gossips, theirs boys, dreams, fashion, jealousy and many others.

recently, this 19-year-old girl feel a new color in life, something related with girls.

I have a friend. she's a girl. and we spend many times together.

and there's once in time when me and this girl hanging out together a lot and suddenly there was something crossed in my head. it was seemly ended up in my head to compare myself with her. yes, it's a silly 19-year-old girl thingy.

and,, there came feelings when I was with her, I felt like darth vader who's standing beside sunshine barbie. not only about the appearances and costumes, but also in the life scene also. miss.darth vader with her real-life star trek scenarios and miss.sunshine barbie gets her lovely barbie-world family, ken, haouse, and everything nice, just like a bedtime story for little girls.

darth vader.

from the star wars movies

and miss sunshine barbie.

so,,

notice the differences? everybody does.

it slightly gives a bit of thinking when you were like a darth vader standing next to miss.sunshine barbie all the time, which she's so irresistible for everybody.

but then,

that's not the point.

every girl is born beautiful - in their own ways.

they have their own life, not to be compared with to any other person.

you don't have to be another person to be interactive. you don't have to imitate or pretend to be somebody else.

your own way is more genuine and ultimate for yourself.

you're beautiful in your own unique, interesting way.

trust me. ;)

and for my last words,

let me just quote one of the famous darth vader's sayings:

"you don't know the power of the dark side!"

hahaha

kiss kiss ;)

my superman is dead

the tittle of this post is not referring to the name of a rock band.

it infers the superman, as in the super man.

ok, I think we get it.

anyway,

my superman is dead. for me.

all the left for me now is just the clark kent. the normal citizen who I might not know.

I used to love my superman, and my love to him is just like a black hole; it's infinite divided by zero. but when it's done, love is just like a sick wound. I feel a real pain, I think I'll die, but eventually I'll recover well - with scars which I can never erase, which prove that I'm still alive.

the process of being recovered itself is not easy. I was holding on to the pain because it's all I have left. but I don't have to. I have a choice.

and being recover in love,

it doesn't mean I was hanging out with some random guys or any other kinds of revenge to my pain. I need to realize that he's still part of me, and always be. it's a fact, and I cannot deny it. I'll just accept that fact and move on.

and remember,

happy girls are pretty girls..

kiss kiss ;)

gombal bersambung

ok, after several days I've been isolated by myself and forgot how to speak indonesian and chinese, today I decided to go public.

start with real delicious foods (not only just cup noodles or cereals and milk),

night wind and raindrops,

I'll continue to spend the night by chatting with my friends via yahoo messenger.

to keep the pops of laughter, let me tell the rest in Indonesian.

*moreover now I can remember how to speak it.

oke,, dimulai dengan thread lawak di kaskus yang judulnya Kerjaan Kamu Apa Kok Berani-Beraninya Ngelamar Anak Saya?,,

aku dan temenku pun membuat gombalan baru lagi:

> dek, papa kamu suka makan ayam ya?

| enggak kok.

> bilang iya, kenapa..

| enggak ah. aku kan nggak mau bohong.

> bohong sekali-kali nggak papa. cepetan, dek.

| oke,, iya, papaku suka makan ayam. terus kenapa?

> pantesan aja, anaknya bisa meng-kukuruyuk-kan hatiku.. huahahaha

| . . . . .

babak kedua

> berani ngelamar anak saya, kerjaan kamu apa?

| saya tukang servis, om.

> terus?

| nanti saya bakal menyervis onderdil hati anak om yg rusak dimasa lalu. akan saya ganti dengan onderdil yg baru kalau perlu ganti dengan onderdil original dari hati saya om.

> wooghhh...

hahaha..

ada yang lebih jago gombal? ;))

summer rain

image taken from google

it was raining during the whole day.

the hot summer is just off for today.

it's replaced by the cool and breezy summer.

and I was riding a rented bike, under the rain, alone.

among the crazy traffic of the city and cool breeze blowing my face,,

seems like I found myself again.

I love wheels!

whether it's skating or biking,, I love the feeling of racing with the wind.

maybe I'm in the mood of melancholy today,

but for sure,, I like biking under the rain. :)